My days of need are still with me. I, at times, feel overwhelmed and without merit. Then I remember that  I am good at what I do and I am worthy of being.  So goes the battles …. mental and physical. I will win the War, but for today I look forward to conquering the doubts…….

This is a statement I made 2 months ago. Why is that important? It is important because I am still fighting the same demons. The same feelings are overwhelming me on a daily basis and I am beginning to wonder if I am making my own drama. Am I willing the angst? Am I willing the discord I am putting myself through?

I am having a hard time with my focus and energy. I seem to be in another space on a regular basis. I am angry that I am a virtual invalid or so I feel like. I am not a good patient. I do not like taking meds. I do not like one day being able to walk and the next day not. SOMETHING HAS TO GIVE TO THE POSITIVE SIDE!!!!!!