I am tired today. More tired that I have been in a long time. I am going to have to get drastic on the weight loss. I am trying to plan my attack. I want to be safe with the plan, but I am getting to a point of needing to be drastic.
My Mantra for today is …. I walk with Determination and Confidence…..
I am listening to Alex, Bonnie and Ryeleigh (sp) ….. brought back so many memories….. good , bad, funny and sad. I was so stressed when my kids were younger that the moments I thought I was enjoying made me sad and I sometimes think my kiddos felt that. I sometimes feel like I am an impostor in my own skin.
I really need to come to terms with the fact that I cannot go back …… I have to move forward. For years I thought I had accomplished the feat of looking forward and not dwelling on the past, but now I realize that I am just keeping items in the filing drawer closest to my self esteem and it weighs heavy there.
I am angry and I am sad and I need to move on to my happy place, but it keeps moving and taking on an alias.